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Wednesday, May 4, 2016

He is Everything


It's like everything has changed.
now when I look into his eyes
I see a radiance
a shine.
I see everything I want.
and it's beautiful.
It really is.
It makes me feel more amazing than I ever have.

but it scares me,
That feeling of complete euphoria.
The little twinkle of a smile I get when I think of him.
The zap I get when I think of how much he cares.
It's so bad.
Because even though my vision has changed
my fear has grown.
I'm still afraid of being shattered.
even more so now than ever before.
Because he is everything.
now,
he is all of it
and I don't know how to handle that.
I've never known,
I've never needed to.


How To Write A Love Song



Write a love song void of hate.
Let the words become continents, stationary yet spinning uncontrollably.
Let the verses roll of the tongue and promise that they are true.
Maybe in a day or a week or a month the words will lose meaning, but now, they must be the truest thing you've ever written.
No matter the love, romantic or familiar, the lines must sound sweet. 
Real and true yet just a dream. 
The tune must float like a cloud of memories, filling the space, 
Reaching out and touching everyone in sight.
The lyrics must speak to every lover, parent and naive child who dares to listen. 
The beat of the song must mimicking a beating heart. A beating heart that learned to love.
It must strike everyone who has ever known love. 
It must be timeless
Like a clock that never strikes 12.
Like a day that never turns to night.
Like a year that never finds winter.
Love is timeless.
Love knows no bounds. 
And if you are sitting yeah back of the room,
Shaking your head and calling a fool for such lengthy and billowing words…
Then I pity you. 
You have not known love as it is. 
So I ask one thing of you.
Do not write a love song, write a reckoning.
Because love that has a limit is not love at all.
It is convenience, 
It is burden, 
It is… Not enough.
And if you do not receive enough love,
Do not blame your too curly hair or the crooked bend of your arm or the way you say tomato. 
The only one to blame is the one who created the void of love you are falling into.
And when you find the person who lives for the joints in your fingers and the swoop in your eyelashes,
Write a song void of hate,
Let your love flood the song until each note is soaked in your happiness.

Smile

When I look at him
He smiles.
And it makes me want to look away,
Because
He looks at me like he admires me.
Not like he worships me 
but like he's so happy
To be able to look at me.
Just this one time.
It's like we share this secret that 
only we know,
An inside joke that only 
we know the punchline for.
And it's beautiful.
It really is
And I know that he feels this way
Because when I look at him
I smile the exact same way.

Friday, September 4, 2015

Fake

I think in a sense I'd always do it for him
even when I turned around 
and refused to do whatever he wanted me to 
I was still doing it for him. 
at this point I don't know whether 
I'm being myself 
or being defiant because it's different.
because no ones really defiant with him.
being defiant makes me different.
It makes me exotic.
I wonder if that's why do it sometimes 
and other times when I'm not with him 
I continue.
I feel like it's actually me and other times it is actually me
but with him it feels different
it feels faker.
I feel faker 
and he has no idea 
finally he has no idea.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

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